We could speak about … sadness, shame, helplessness, anger, vulnerability, embarrassment, disappointment, and frustration … and many other issues … which bring a negative impact on our lives.
After studying the people from the stage of my life, but also people which i never met in person … I’ve realized that many times the life itself … just sucks … because we allow to be connected and also be dominated… by lots of negative emotions.
We accept … into our souls … ugly energies … which have a huge impact on us … on short and long term.
And … we not even pay attention to those details.
We ignore … the impact.
We ignore that something which today looks so, so unimportant… sooner or later will have full control … on ourselves.
Yes … truth be told … we are ignorants.
We see this dance of contradictory emotions … that is actually controlling our lives … as normality.
We not even dare to think of such a concept as …. spiritual garbage.
But … you know why?!
Cause … everyone … let us believe that this is … normal.
And … yes … it’s normal to be surrounded… by garbage.
That …. this is part of life.
I smile in front of such perceptions.
Then … i laugh of myself.
I realize … how i’ve wasted my life … allowing myself to have inside myself an universe dominated … by negativity.
And … changing all … became … just … a decision … but i was too coward to accept this ugly concept of … spiritual garbage.
Even … if all was so, so obvious.
I’ve started to write my first book at 16 … but then … realizing i could not publish it … i’ve abandoned the idea of being a … writer.
20 years later … i’ve started to write again … believing i will finally succeed … but i’ve failed one more time … not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later … i’ve started one more time to write … but this time … more as a therapy.
It’s what i’ve defined as … self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas … that were a lot related to me … and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts … in essays … becoming this way … maybe not a writer …. but what many define as … an essayist.
This is not a poet … and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry … but is still expressing his thoughts … into a similar way … as a poet.
And is not a writer … cause have not the ability to write for too long time … about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist… either.
I am just an ordinary person … that could be better defined … as a thinker.
Analyzing … and defining my life … practicing this process called … self therapy … i started to understand life … and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i’ve wrote … and wrote … and wrote … realizing one day that i’ve published tens of books …. not really understanding how the hell I’ve succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing … as a therapy.
I could even say … it’s a simple way of understanding who we are … but also a process that could help us … heal our souls.
I personally continue to … write.
It’s in fact … a non ending story that … at least for myself … will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all … i am glad … i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey … not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist… but …
Well …. most probably… i am on a good path.
And … i would dare to recommend to everyone … all what i am doing today.