Of course ... from the perspective of a man, but still doing all my best to be objective ... even if so many, many times I've literally lost my minds ... especially in love relationships.
Provoked so much ... by my woman ... from that time.
Or ... because of many other women ... met on the stage of my life.
Even today ... when i finally finished the manuscript of "The NONSENSE ... seen as normality" ... i had to deal with some ladies from the electrical company ... and almost wanted to kill them ... but just before doing it ... security company asked to leave the building and shut up ...
Right after ... i had a moment of semi awakening ... realising one more time that all is just material for my books ... so i left in peace ... without any frustrations into my heart ... even if i knew i was right.
You see ... it's difficult to understand... but also to accept the nonsense.
Unfortunately is part of life and a lot related to the unconscious side of the human being.
With the dark side from us.
And it's not that the man doesn't have that ... virus inside of his mind ... but most certainly it's more obvious at the woman.
I clearly saw it ... analysing and interacting with probably ... thousands of ladies.
So ... i have an idea about what i am talking about ... having somehow the moral right of writing this book.
Unfortunately ... from reasons which i don't know and can't understand ... my karma is a lot related with this connection to femininity ... so ... my only tendency today ... seeing i am trapped for real into the nonsense .. is to protest.
Writing.
And writing.
Running away of duality ... but always coming back ... because of a spell ... at all those ladies from the stage of life.
I've started to write my first book at 16 ... but then ... realizing i could not publish it ... i've abandoned the idea of being a ... writer.
20 years later ... i've started to write again ... believing i will finally succeed ... but i've failed one more time ... not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later ... i've started one more time to write ... but this time ... more as a therapy.
It's what i've defined as ... self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas ... that were a lot related to me ... and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts ... in essays ... becoming this way ... maybe not a writer .... but what many define as ... an essayist.
This is not a poet ... and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry ... but is still expressing his thoughts ... into a similar way ... as a poet.
And is not a writer ... cause have not the ability to write for too long time ... about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist... either.
I am just an ordinary person ... that could be better defined ... as a thinker.
Analyzing ... and defining my life ... practicing this process called ... self therapy ... i started to understand life ... and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i've wrote ... and wrote ... and wrote ... realizing one day that i've published tens of books .... not really understanding how the hell I've succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing ... as a therapy.
I could even say ... it's a simple way of understanding who we are ... but also a process that could help us ... heal our souls.
I personally continue to ... write.
It's in fact ... a non ending story that ... at least for myself ... will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all ... i am glad ... i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey ... not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist... but ...
Well .... most probably... i am on a good path.
And ... i would dare to recommend to everyone ... all what i am doing today.