He had nowhere to run, no way to leave, and it was still so hard to stay still, watching it come. His heart was in his throat. His palms hurt where he'd been pressing his nails into them. If the world was waiting for him to be ready, it never would have come. Josh is done feeling powerless, or so he thinks. But the more he fights it, the more entangled he becomes. When will he accept that he simply isn't the one in control ... Reader Advisory: This story is part of a series for mature audiences only and which features intensely erotic situations, discipline, exhibition, humiliation, rough first time anal sex, dominance and submissiveness. All characters are 18 or older.