I had the childhood dream of playing professional sports. I never thought I would end up being a Nurse, let alone one that was addicted to drugs. Of the 3.5 million Nurses in the United States, 10-15% divert narcotics and up to 20% are addicted to drugs. There is a definite problem of addiction in the Nursing Profession, as well as in society as a whole. The disease of addiction is one of epidemic proportion growing faster with each passing day. This is a true story of my struggles treating this incurable disease. Also, on my journey of life I have endured such things as child abuse, high school politics, institutions, adultery, and death knocking on my door, before I got caught with my hand in the cookie jar. This book gives inspiration and hope to everyone that getting and staying off drugs is possible. I am living proof that anyone can find a new way of life and live out their dreams.