I Keep Trying to Catch His Eye: A Memoir of Loss, Grief, and Love

Ivan Maisel

Okt. 2021 · Verkauft von Hachette Books

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In this deeply emotional memoir, a longtime ESPN writer reflects on the suicide of his son Max and delves into how their complicated relationship led him to see grief as love.

In February 2015, Ivan Maisel received a call that would alter his life forever: his son Max's car had been found abandoned in a parking next to Lake Ontario. Two months later, Max's body would be found in the lake. 

There’d been no note or obvious indication that Max wanted to harm himself; he’d signed up for a year-long subscription to a dating service; he’d spent the day he disappeared doing photography work for school. And this uncertainty became part of his father’s grief. I Keep Trying to Catch His Eye explores with grace, depth, and refinement the tragically transformative reality of losing a child. But it also tells the deeply human and deeply empathetic story of a father’s relationship with his son, of its complications, and of Max and Ivan’s struggle—as is the case for so many parents and their children—to connect.

I Keep Trying to Catch His Eye is a stunning, poignant exploration of the father and son relationship, of how our tendency to overlook men’s mental health can have devastating consequences, and how ultimately letting those who grieve do so openly and freely can lead to greater healing. 

Autoren-Profil

Ivan Maisel is Vice-President, Editorial, and Senior Writer for on3.com.  He has covered college football for nearly four decades, from 2002-2021 at ESPN, where he wrote for ESPN.com and appeared on television, ESPN Radio, and podcasts.  Prior to ESPN, Maisel covered national college football for Sports Illustrated, Newsday and The Dallas Morning News.  He has been honored eight times for Best Story by the Football Writers Association of America, and twice by The Associated Press Sports Editors, which in 2019 named him one of the ten best sports columnists.