The Reason: How I Discovered a Life Worth Living

Baker Books
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The day Lacey Sturm planned to kill herself was the day her grandmother forced her to go to church, a place Lacey thought was filled with hypocrites, fakers, and simpletons. The screaming match she had with her grandmother was the reason she went to church. What she found there was the Reason she is alive today.

With raw vulnerability, this hard rock princess tells her own story of physical abuse, drug use, suicide attempts, and more--and her ultimate salvation. She asks the hard questions so many young people are asking--Why am I here? Why am I empty? Why should I go on living?--showing readers that beyond the temporary highs and the soul-crushing lows there is a reason they exist and a purpose for their lives. She not only gives readers a peek down the rocky path that led her to become a vocalist in a popular hardcore band, but she shows them that the same God is guiding their steps today.
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About the author

Lacey Sturm is the voice behind the platinum-selling, international rock band Flyleaf. She's a mother, a wife, a hard rock princess, a writer, a speaker, and a now-solo artist. But most of all, she's a child of God who desires for others to know and understand how special, how beautiful, how kaleidoscopically wonderful we are made. Lacey is currently a regular speaker for the Billy Graham Evangelistic Association and its Rock the River events. She co-founded the Whosoever Movement and is a featured artist with RESET. She lives in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, with her family. For more information, visit
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Baker Books
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Sep 30, 2014
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Biography & Autobiography / Personal Memoirs
Religion / Spirituality
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