I Just Wanted to Be Loved: A boy eager to please. The man who destroyed his childhood. The love that overcame it.

Stuart Howarth

Feb 2009 · Sold by HarperCollins UK

About this ebook

The author of the bestselling Please Daddy No reveals more harrowing experiences of his neglected childhood.

Having survived the terrible abuse at the hands of his stepfather, Stuart has to reach within himself again to live through the degradation of prison. He is released back into the world without any support or counselling from the authorities.

The child abuse and numerous court cases had almost destroyed him, and Stuart became reliant on drugs and alcohol. With his life spiralling out of control, Stuart attempts suicide a number of times. The last try leaving the doctors that resuscitated him incredulous he had survived.

At the point of no-return, Stuart was sent to an hospital in the Scottish highlands to fight the demons that assailed him and rebuild his life. This is the remarkable story of his fight to be his own man.

Ratings and reviews

WOW. I took was abused as a young girl, along with several of my siblings and cousins. It's a horrible thing to go through. I was also abused by a boy in my class when I was in the 4th grade. This book was very powerful. I'm so proud and impressed how he came out on the other side. And to his wife Tracey, what an amazing person she is. I pray God continue to bless Stuart and the work he continues to do.

I have read several books about abuse and the stories behind them. I have never read one that has touched me so much. I have cried, cursed and smiled as I read about Stuart's life and struggles. Once you start reading it will be hard to put this one down!

An excellent but sad read. Well done Stuart for enduring everything you went through and coming out the other side, you are an inspiration.

About the author

Stuart lives in Manchester with his wife Tracey. He has two children, Matthew and Rebecca, whom he loves dearly. He runs his own business and is continually improving the quality of his life whilst assisting others in recovering from past traumas and addiction