Save Me from Myself: How I Found God, Quit Korn, Kicked Drugs, and Lived to Tell My Story

Brian Welch

Oct 2009 · Harper Collins

About this ebook

The former Korn guitarist’s “compelling” story of an out-of-control life, a devastating drug addiction, and a miraculous redemption through Jesus Christ(Entertainment Weekly).

In February 2005, more than ten thousand people in Bakersfield, California, watched as Brian “Head” Welch—the former lead guitarist of the controversial rock band Korn—was saved by Jesus Christ. The event set off a media frenzy as observers from around the world sought to understand what led this rock star out of the darkness and into the light.

Now, in this courageous memoir, Head talks for the first time about his shocking embrace of God and the tumultuous decade that led him into the arms of Jesus Christ. Offering a backstage pass to his time with Korn, Head tells the inside story of his years in the band and explains how his lifestyle resulted in an all-consuming addiction to methamphetamines. Writing openly about the tour bus mayhem of Ozzfest and the Family Values tour, he provides a candid look at how the routine of recording, traveling, and partying placed him in a cycle of addiction that he could not break on his own.

Head details his struggles with the drug that ultimately led him to seek a higher power. Despite his numerous attempts to free himself from meth, nothing—not even the birth of his daughter—could spur him to kick it for good. Here Head addresses how, with the help of God, he emerged from his dangerous addiction and found a path that was not only right for his daughter, it was right for him.

Discussing the chaotic end to his time in Korn and how his newfound faith has influenced his relationship with his daughter, his life, and his music, Head describes a rock and roll journey unlike any other, and reveals how his moments of doubt and his hardships have only deepened his faith.

“Not your typical testimony account . . . surprisingly engrossing.” —CCM Magazine

“[A] tale of how religion can save a lost soul . . . the book explains, without becoming preachy, how Welch gave up rock stardom for a Christian lifestyle.” —Library Journal

Includes photographs

Ratings and reviews

Despite being a lifelong follower of Jesus, this book smashed me around in spots, challenging my apathy & shining light on my own issues similar to Head's. His candid honesty & willingness to use his story to glorify God's ultimate love has had a profound impact on me. I've purchased his other books...they're about to be read also!

I grew up a christian. But in no way on earth do i get the rambling jesus speak halfway through this book. As an old korn fan i love all the guys, and this was a great insite into the band, albeit a dark one. But theres probly better ways to get that than haveing to read the very americanised bible bashing that starts halfway through. Unless you really really love god, pick another book

In 2010 I decided to put an end to heroin, dope, rigs, street life, homelessness, & serving heroin. I began my sobriety in July 2010 after battling addiction since 12. An acquaintance heard about my struggle & journey, he also heard of my intense love, crazy obsession, & freak of a fanatic that I am of KoRn since 7. He lent me this book & it legit made me stronger & beat my addiction to heroin/meth. KoRns always been influential and inspiring 4 me, still is to this day. Head & KoRn initially saved my life!!

About the author

Brian "Head" Welch was one of the founding members of Korn. In 2005, after an intense spiritual awakening, he was instantly delivered from years of substance abuse with almost no symptoms of withdrawal. Today he lives and prays with his daughter Jennea in Arizona.