A Double-Edged Life: A Memoir of a Young Woman's Journey with Bipolar

Jill Gebhart Campbell

Aug 2009 · Author House

About this ebook

Jill Gebhart Campbells passion for poetry, writing, and drawing prompted her to write this book, utilizing these creative genres, in order to portray her bipolar illness in a more personal way. It is also a reflection of how the devastating effects of bipolar disorder shaped her life. The authors story is about a young womans odyssey of triumph and sorrow and her journey to find herself again. Before her diagnosis, she was a beautiful, compassionate young woman who excelled in both athletics and academics. After her diagnosis she gained more than 120 poundsdue to health issues, sick children, psychiatric hospitalizations, and unsuitable medications. She became depressed, self-consumed, and bitter. The debilitating depression and hauntingly real hallucinations forever impacted the way she sees life and how life sees her. Her faith in God proved to be her ultimate anchor through her heart-wrenching circumstances.

After admission to solitary confinement, due to hallucinations, she experienced an even more profound depression. The white walls, barred windows, cold cement floors, and white bedding only exacerbated my feelings of isolation and left me swirling downward in an even deeper depression.

However, the Lords unconditional love has allowed her to walk on the bright side once again. She overcame all the odds to become the woman she longed to be. She has attained the serenity one reaches when theyve been to the very end, beyond hope, yet made it back.

About the author

Jill Marie Gebhart Campbell was born in St. Joseph, Michigan, and has lived in Colorado since 1972. She is a graduate of Brigham Young University with a degree in humanities and a minor in English, with supporting coursework in Chinese and business. Her passion for art, poetry, and literature developed from her studies at BYU. She is married to Dan Campbell, and they have two children.