My name is James. At a time when intimate homosexual relationships were barely legal, pretending everything was fine became second nature to me. I lived in fear because that’s what love meant to me. Fear of punishment. Fear of being outed. Fear of being alone. I was ready to end my life until I found solace in the arms of a stranger who was determined to change my life. I became a member of the Chess Club before it even had a name. With the help of my friends I discovered who I was and what I had to contribute, and I finally let my past go. This is my love story.