In fact i was dealing with thousands of them ... and i had moments when i’ve wondered myself ... why do i meet the whole spectrum of the human beings?!
What is the message behind that?!
What the Universe is trying to whisper to me?!
But what i can say that it was funny ... was that i met people i liked, people i disliked, people that i liked and then i disliked and ... people i disliked and then i liked.
The interactions were of so many different types ... that i almost started to believe that i am at school ... a school where i need to understand what the human being is.
But i had to understand ... the whole spectrum of them ... no matter who they were.
There were moments when i was almost forced to deal with certain prototypes of souls that i not even thought that exist.
Yes ... i felt ... forced by the Universe ... to meet many of those persons ... but i knew it was a reason it was happening.
I had events when I thought some people were trying to destroy me ... but at the end of those stories i had become a better and also stronger person.
And i also met persons that i thought that they will somehow rebuild myself ... and ended the story with them almost ruined emotionally.
But i realized one thing ... everything had a purpose ... to reveal me what life is about ... by having so many interconnections with the people from the world.
Today ... same as always ... i still love socializing ... with everybody ... but i don’t judge the connections anymore.
I see it as a ... life experience ... and in fact as a blessing in my evolution as a human being.
I know that every human i met ... it’s just a reflection of my inner self.
When i meet good people ... i need to pay attention at all those positive attributes i see ... but also keep them active as much as i can in my personality.
And when ... i meet people i dislike ... i have the courage to admit that they are ... the reflection of that part of myself ... which in fact i dislike.
But ... i admit that i still have moments when i believe in the illusion of life ... believe in the duality ... and that i am not wise enough.
I continue to analyze and define everything i see on the timeline of my own life ... but also keep active the process of redefining myself.
And i love being the witness of ... my life.
I’ve started to write my first book at 16 … but then … realizing i could not publish it … i’ve abandoned the idea of being a … writer.
20 years later … i’ve started to write again … believing i will finally succeed … but i’ve failed one more time … not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later … i’ve started one more time to write … but this time … more as a therapy.
It’s what i’ve defined as … self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas … that were a lot related to me … and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts … in essays … becoming this way … maybe not a writer …. but what many define as … an essayist.
This is not a poet … and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry … but is still expressing his thoughts … into a similar way … as a poet.
And is not a writer … cause have not the ability to write for too long time … about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist… either.
I am just an ordinary person … that could be better defined … as a thinker.
Analyzing … and defining my life … practicing this process called … self therapy … i started to understand life … and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i’ve wrote … and wrote … and wrote … realizing one day that i’ve published tens of books …. not really understanding how the hell I’ve succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing … as a therapy.
I could even say … it’s a simple way of understanding who we are … but also a process that could help us … heal our souls.
I personally continue to … write.
It’s in fact … a non ending story that … at least for myself … will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all … i am glad … i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey … not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist… but …
Well …. most probably… i am on a good path.
And … i would dare to recommend to everyone … all what i am doing today.