We should understand and accept that not the destination is important … cause life has no real destination.
…but what it is really important is maybe the experience itself.
Good … bad … however it is … it all has the meaning to reveal to us the dance of energies beyond the scene of reality… making us aware that all is … energy.
Into the end … maybe there is only one conclusion … but i hate saying it.
Well … we could chose to connect just on the beautiful vibrations of life … and totally ignore negativity.
But … we can’t.
I … can’t …
Maybe … i’ll never be able to do it.
So … life continues …. revealing new and new experiences… and i still don’t really understand the energies …
…. the amazing dance of energies.
Looking … like a cocktail of …. elements … which induces us the illusion of the abstract.
I smile … and i stop being annoyed.
I allow to life to continue … and i finally accept that in fact … life would continue anyway … with or without my approval.
And … all i have to do is just to experience it … with or without joy … even if i know that the only purpose is to evolve spiritually.
So ….
I’ve started to write my first book at 16 … but then … realizing i could not publish it … i’ve abandoned the idea of being a … writer.
20 years later … i’ve started to write again … believing i will finally succeed … but i’ve failed one more time … not getting the success i was chasing for.
Another 5 years later … i’ve started one more time to write … but this time … more as a therapy.
It’s what i’ve defined as … self therapy.
I was analyzing and defining lots of weird ideas … that were a lot related to me … and my own soul.
I totally forgot that i was chasing for success.
I was simple writing my thoughts … in essays … becoming this way … maybe not a writer …. but what many define as … an essayist.
This is not a poet … and not a writer.
Or maybe is kind of a poet that is incapable of writing poetry … but is still expressing his thoughts … into a similar way … as a poet.
And is not a writer … cause have not the ability to write for too long time … about the same subject.
But maybe i am not an essayist… either.
I am just an ordinary person … that could be better defined … as a thinker.
Analyzing … and defining my life … practicing this process called … self therapy … i started to understand life … and the way to better paths which i should follow.
And i’ve wrote … and wrote … and wrote … realizing one day that i’ve published tens of books …. not really understanding how the hell I’ve succeeded doing that.
Today i dare to recommend writing … as a therapy.
I could even say … it’s a simple way of understanding who we are … but also a process that could help us … heal our souls.
I personally continue to … write.
It’s in fact … a non ending story that … at least for myself … will probably continue for the rest of my life.
But over all … i am glad … i am doing it.
I continue my philosophical journey … not being able to define myself for clear as a writer or an essayist… but …
Well …. most probably… i am on a good path.
And … i would dare to recommend to everyone … all what i am doing today.